Stillness before Action

Approximately 2 weeks ago, the heaviness descended and, although I didn’t want to admit it, I knew. So I wasn’t even surprised as the election results came in.

I wish I was surprised - but, as Maya Angelou said, “When people show you who they are, believe them the first time.”

And many American voters have shown us who they are. Again, and again, and again.

Ordinarily, I’m fairly resilient. But it’s been a long, challenging year. So I don’t feel particularly resilient.

I feel scared. For myself. For my marriage. For women. For minorities. For democracy - which means I’m scared for all of us.

Part of me wants to blow up all my social media accounts but the other part of me still needs and wants connection. But do the people whom I’m connected to, that cast a vote against me as a woman and a member of the LGBTQ+ community want to be connected to me?

I’m being still now. Stillness comes before action. Stillness means not doing anything rash - like blowing up my social media. One of the first actions Andrea and I will take is to update our will and ensure we have power of attorney so in the event our marriage is dissolved by some federal, legal undoing, we can see one another in the hospital.